“The worst pressure was within my own head, the fear of success and the fear of failure. And not concentrating on my craft. I was just concentrating on getting another job. It manifested in panic and fear and lots and lots of drinking to bolster my courage. After “Star Trek,” I had a fallow year. I was waiting for “Star Trek” to come out and push me onto a bigger stage. I ended up in the hospital just after it came out. I broke down physically, spiritually, mentally. And I had to realize that this chasing dreams, this panic, this constant nervous energy wasn’t healthy for me. A lot of people drink for pleasure, they party hard, but for me it didn’t help. The best thing was to cut it out altogether. So I went back to the theater and slowly worked back to where I am now. But I’m aware now that this could all stop, and that’s OK too.
If I feel anything is encroaching on my ability to stay stable and have a purpose in my life, then I’ll bow out respectfully. I came very close to losing everything before, and it scarred me. I’m very proud of the mark, but I don’t ever want to go there again.”
“Adelaide Clemens and Tobey Maguire are about to shoot the scene we called ‘Myrtle’s party’. In 1925 Fitzgerald couldn’t say exactly what went on…Another reference that we used was Joseph Moncure March’s narrative poem The Wild Party, published and widely banned in 1928” — The Great Gatsby director Baz Luhrmann